So often I wonder what I will be when I grow up. Really, I know. But I think about it a lot. I have a lot of fun ideas and desires. I was an accountant at one time in my life. It was good to me. I don't really enjoy being an accountant although I think I was fairly good at it...numbers are nice to me. But it was kind of boring and I don't really socialize well with the stereotypical accountant type. No offense, I always loved those I worked with. But it just isn't something I have ever really wanted to return to. I haven't wanted to enter into the world and work the books.
So I have created alternatives...maybe I could be a writer and tell some fascinating story that would grip any audience (Stephanie Meyers did a pretty bang up job at it and she had no experience), maybe I would become a karate instructor (I would have to take karate first myself though), maybe I would run an orphanage or something of the sort (I know they don't really have those anymore but maybe a group home or something), maybe I would run for office (oh, maybe not, I couldn't hold up against the criticism), maybe I would go back to school and be a doctor (I mean a PhD, not an MD, I don't like blood), maybe I would be a secret shopper or something (that way all I have to do is buy things with someone else's money), maybe a critic of some sort (I always like to pick things apart, sometimes in a good way, sometimes not), maybe I would be plane and normal but maybe is always something I am not. Right now, I am not any of those things.
Right now, I am a mom. I am resolved to only be a mom. I don't use the word only synonymous with 'just a mom'. I mean only a mom and focused and make that my better career. People have their annual reviews at their jobs. They set new expectations and decide if there is a raise warranted or not. I caught myself feeding Navy and daydreaming about other things. So my resolve this year is to be only a mom. Not taking away the other things that I am...wife, sister, friend, etc. My focus will be to improve, to notice more closely, to not be multi-tasking (not that I can do that very well to begin with), to be less chaotic and more of a mom, to be faithful in the duties of mommy. I want to listen better, understand better, support them better, blame them less, comfort them more, empathize better, sympathize to their level, teach them patiently, love them better. I want to be warranted for that pay raise next year, I want to earn that accomplishment and review this year knowing I was better.
On another resolution note, in addition to improving my mom skills, we have decided to start looking into foster care. We want to do more for those that have less. We don't know the details or if we'll even quality but we desire to help and love others. Hopefully the new year will bring us great blessings.